To Mr. Anfauglir:
After reading your post, i cannot help but express my heartfelt condolences of what you're going through. However, reading your post, it appears that all your family members are believer in God, except you. And if you haven't noticed, they've all either gone to a better world or jus simply living well into old age. As for you my friend, you are bearing the punishment. Could be that you are not a believer and God is dealing with pretty nicely if you ask me. God bless.