I just wanted to say hello to everyone and give you a little info about me.
I found this site searching for reasons why God doesn't exist. I read the 50 reasons on the God is Imaginary site and headed over here to check out some discussions. I'm a recovering Christian, you could say. I grew up semi-religious, my maternal grandmother was very religious (Baptist) and shaped my earlier years. My older self, I've kinda stumbled around looking for something. I'm so liberal that I can't understand most Christian churches. I tried being an Episcopalian because they seemed more liberal. But the old farts in the congregation ended up running the young liberal priest out of the parish.
What got me in the god is imaginary way of thinking was looking at prayer. Was is working or not? And seeing that prayers were not and blessings were not coming as they seemed to with every Christian I had met. This made me thing about it a lot. Why some and not others?
When I was practicing my biggest prayer was to meet a nice man and get married. But day after day, month after month, year after year, it never happened. I'd ask other Christians, why would god deny me love when he's about love? I'd get the standard, its not time, it's not his will, he needs you single, etc. Then they would turn around and praise the lord for not having to go through being single and trying to find a mate in this time. Gee, thanks.
Someone I sorta know, who is a raving conservative Christian, was ranting on Facebook about same sex marriage rights. So I asked him, why deny someone love? Of course, he's not denying love, he says it about morality. So I ask, why would god not answer the prayers of a straight woman who wants what you define as "biblical marriage" but these supposed sinners find companions. His answer was: sin is easy. I asked him to explain and he told me I was being righteous and devout to pray for a spouse, not out doing debauchery and waiting for god's will. So ask him, why is god making me wait so long? Oh, I don't know the mind of god, he says. The ever popular way out.
Anyway, after years of never getting this prayer (or any other) answered one night I was so desperate to understand it I called a prayer line. I got a Methodist minster and he basically told me that finding a spouse equated to winning the lottery. I told him I'm screwed because I don't have that type of luck. The he says, it isn't about luck. It was about patience and virtue and some other crap. I was more confused than when I started out.
Later I was in the public library I saw an audiobook The God Delusion
. I had to get it. For the first time I saw a lot of the questions I had wanted answers to explained. I'm re-reading it now (not listening to the audiobook). I'd like to read some of the other books Dawkins references too. It makes more sense than most of the answers I've gotten from Christians.
So that's me. Sorry it's long but as my username says, I'm a writer and I tend to get wordy! lol