JB, let me see if I can summarize your perspective accurately. The best kind of discussion comes from people really understanding opposing points of view. You say you did not make up your god, but it already existed. How did you find out about it? From other people, from books, or directly from this god in some fashion?
When most people refer to a god, they mean a being or force with superior knowledge, powers above human, who possibly created the universe and everything in it. Gods also supposedly communicate with people and give laws or morals for living. Sometimes gods are defined as beings that only do good (praise god from whom all blessings flow), but gods also can do what people would consider negative things, like cause AIDS, or drown a country in a tsunami.
You, however are positing a different take on god:
you say that your god does not give anyone disabilities or sickness, nor does it heal anyone from disabilities or sickness. It has not communicated with humans through religious prophets. It is not responsible for anything that happens, good or bad, positive or negative or helpful or harmful. Negative things, like tsunamis, are either part of nature that we just have to deal with, or like warfare, are caused by human beings.
Positive things are... apparently also part of nature or caused by human beings, I think. I am not sure what your take is on where random positive things come from. Does your god make someone have musical talent, help pretty flowers grow in a garden, help a homeless man win the lotto or find someone's car keys?
You say your god does not have any magical or supernatural powers. It has not been properly represented in any of the world's religions. Yet, you somehow connect Jesus--a Christian figure-- with your non-religious god. Again I am wondering how you found out about this god, and why nobody else seems to know about it.
From what you have written, it seems like your god is indistinguishable from the natural world
. It is just the world, life, the universe, and everything. Am I understanding you correctly?
You have also said your god loves us all, saved you from child abuse and gives everyone a wonderful afterlife. Is that also correct?
It seems that you have used a lot or words to say this: having your god in the picture is exactly the same as not having any "god" at all
, from the way most people define a god. Can you begin to understand why I suggested that you have made up your own version of god?