Welcome The Voice.
You could go a long way towards assuring us that there is a god by first praying that he will teach you about how to use paragraphs. We would be impressed.
When a god who feels no pressure to prove his existence behaves exactly as a non-existent god would behave, we atheists tend to jump the gun and assume the latter. Or, you guys jump the gun and assume the former.
As one who never prays, who never expects results from non-prayer, and as one who sees all events as natural and without supernatural intervention, nothing within my purview seems to require a god-based explanation. Neither kindness nor cruelty confounds me. No event, either wonderful or tragic, has ever seemed impossible before hand. Stuff happens. No god is required. And I've no idea how people convince themselves otherwise.
When my father was dying of cancer, not once did I pray for him to get better. Others did, I assume. But not me. If there is a god, I assume he knew what he was doing. If there isn't, it would have been a waste of my time.
I was just thinking the other day. I am almost 63. I have 12 first cousins and two brothers. The youngest of us is 54. All of us are still alive. All of our children are still alive. All of the grandchildren are still alive. None of us has even been seriously injured, none of us has ever had cancer or a heart attack. None of us has been victim to a serious crime. And most of us are atheists. And the ones that aren't do go to church anyway.
What are we doing wrong? What are we missing? Who should we hate to have a normal, horror filled, jesus loving life? Where is our fear-laden inspiration to turn to your god?
I am a calm, peaceful person who understands that life has so many variables that religion is an inevitable outcome of certain social conditions. I understand that many people want an outside force to influence them. I understand that people create needs that cannot be met by life alone, and that the imaginary often does a better job than reality, when a false positive outlook is preferred over whatever is real. So I don't blame people for being religious.
I do blame them for being afraid of the right questions, though.
Added: Sorry everyone. I didn't realize this was a dead thread. If The Voice wishes to continue this discussion, I'll start a new thread that includes his initial post or something.