OK, I am Schizoid and I am a schizoid. That is, I have SPD--schizoid personality disorder. Granted, I am a high functioning schizoid, a covert schizoid--most people are not aware of it. Otherwise I am basic schizoid material: very much a loner who can really do without people altogether. I am not unfriendly, but nonfriendly--I can fake it well. I am not antisocial (barely), but nonsocial--I really, really would rather not have to do it. I can deal with and tolerate people well under my own terms, like on my own turf where I have control or if leaving them is under my control. Otherwise I feel trapped and uncomfortable. Like a mandatory meeting at work in a large room--I have to sit in the very back in a corner where everyone else is in front of me (like an Old West gunfighter), otherwise I am not comfortable. I am introverted, but not shy and really have next to no friends (why would I have friends?) and I like it that way--I find people to be annoying.
Here is my dilemma and irony. The irony is that I'm an atheist and I work for Sally, you know, the religious outfit that runs the homeless shelters and has the red kettles. I've gotten along well there because there really is not much religious in my day to day job other than having to vacuum the chapel, but it's just a room. I accepted on job there 2 years ago to work as a custodian, to clean, that's it. So my first Christmas there, and Christmas is a very big deal at Sallys, I am just part time. By my second Christmas I was full time and to my great surprise I was informed that as a full time employee I was required to work (I would be paid) two 2 hour bell ringing shifts which I did at a Walgreens near my home.
Nothing to do with religion, but as a schizoid I found this to be very uncomfortable, unpleasant--not only was I trapped in one spot and could not leave, I was on display and forced to interact with people who came through the doors and those who put money in the kettle. Clearly I was uncomfortable and was obviously not happy to be there. I thanked everyone who put money in the kettle, but did not say "Merry Christmas" to anyone. Yeah, it didn't kill me, but at my interview and when I was hired, nothing was said about a requirement to ring bells at Christmas--nothing. I have no problem with doing anything that is remotely connected to custodial work, but that doesn't include bell ringing. If I was told before being hired I would have to bell ring, or help to serve meals at noon, I would have said "no thanks".
So this year my intention is to do nothing. I'm not going to talk about it but I intend to simply not sign up for any shifts and see what happens. Fortunately I am pretty well liked and respected (I am one of the oldest employees and I think they mistake my general quietness for somehow being "deep") and the Major who is also my age (61) is also an introvert. But I feel my stance is not unreasonable since I was never given an opportunity to give prior consent to bell ringing before I was hired. (I don't think I will be fired, but I won't get the employee of the week award which as a schizoid I would naturally refuse).