I can't do this anymore.
And you shouldn't, kiddo. This is the wrong place for you to be when you're facing so much right now.
While many of us here disagreed with you in many ways, none of us would ever wish you harm. And we don't now. You go take care of your health problems, help your partner, and let your friends be your friends. We are irrelevant.
Until you get all better. Then we'll welcome you back with open arms and disagree with you again. In the meantime, take care of yourself.