No No No No! Hell is a fucking terrible thing. How could you possibly not get that, from all I've said? Why did Jesus come and suffer it in our place, if not for the fact it's terrible?
I believe it's a reality. That doesn't make it a good, desirable or pleasant reality. What you're clearly not willing to contemplate is why it should even be a reality.
Oh, I contemplate it. But I have no understanding at all of why it WOULD be a reality, assuming that your god is both loving, and desiring that we are saved.
Because a place of eternal punsihment and torment that is as terrible as you describe is entirely disproportionate to any crime or sin that may be committed in a finite earthly life. Some punishment? Maybe. Depends on the crime. But unremitting torment for ever? No sir - no loving god could ever create such a place or deem it necessary or appropriate.
Especially when you examine the criteria for going there, which in the broad is "not accepting Christ".
I would have no problem in accepting Christ. He sounds like a generally OK dude, telling people to be nice to one another and not be so mean. I can get behind that, sure. But not because Christ said it, but because I think its a good way to be. The problem is that I can't accept Christ because I simply don't believe he exists, don't believe your god exists.
In most threads, the belief eventually comes down to "I had a personal experience, and so I believed" - making the belief something out of the control of the person experiencing it. And that's the problem I have with hell - that because I was not given this personal experience, I will be tormented forever for something out of my control.....and there is NO way I can square that with a necessary and terrible hell.
Further, those personal experiences fly in the face of any kind of "belief without proof", of any kind of faith. For true faith to exist, you would have to have that faith, keep that faith, in a life entirely bereft of any feeling of connection, any feeling of relationship, any "awareness" of that god. Because although I wouldn't accept your
personal experience as evidence for ME to believe, I accept that it is evidence for YOU. Sufficient evidence for you to be convinced of the actuality of your god.
And therein lies the problem. Some people HAVE enough evidence for their god.....but many others don't. Yet when I ask "why not?", when I ask why god doesn't simply reveal himself to everyone and make it clear that he exists, the response is invariably "because then you wouldn't have faith, you would KNOW". Well, so far as I can see, all the experiences you have had mean that you DO "know". You have long gone past faith without any evidence, and are operating from a position of knowledge: knowledge that you cannot share with anyone else, sure, but nonetheless you are certain there is a god. You don't believe, you know....and hence remove any validity for that god not granting that knowledge
to every human on the planet, and hence removing the possibility of hell for unbelief.
So no - I cannot conceive of any reason why a loving god who wants us to be saved would ever have the need to create and eternal, terrible, necessary hell.