Thanks you guys for the warm welcome!
@Quesi
My family is atheist, so I grew up as one. My parents are both Estonian but we moved to Canada and Estonia tends to have a low religious belief rate anyways.
When I was young (kindergartenish) people would always say whether they were Christian or Muslim or whatever and I never understood what they were talking about. I didn't understand religion and why people would believe in god. As I got older I would sometimes debate religion with friends and would always get stuck on their circular reasoning for example when I asked them who created god, they replied "god created himself" and of course I didn't know how to reply. I guess those times got me thinking more about all of this stuff and wanting to know more answers, which led me here.
I've lived my life relatively peacefully, I used to fear the nothingness of death but I've gotten over it. I'm planning to live this life as well as I can and get the most out of it. 
Nice. I grew up in a secular household as well, with religious folks in my extended family.
The forum is an interesting mix of people. A lot of folks grew up in religious households, and faced a difficult break from tradition and their families. For those of us who grew up secular, the complex belief systems held by our friends (and perhaps extended family) are sometimes confusing, sometimes exotic, sometimes just plain silly.
Nothing wrong with fearing death. Life is precious. I don't so much fear death, as I mourn the end of life, the absence of loved ones, and for me, I really resent the fact that I'm gonna miss the good stuff that is going on when I'm gone.
