Thanks Boots and Lori for the additional explanation. I have often wondered where Theists come up with the idea that "God won't give you more than you can handle." That certainly isn't found anywhere in Scripture, but seems to be common in Western Christian circles and Evangelical Christianity. It's hard to make this claim in light of the fact that nearly all the original disciples were martyred, some brutally. Stephen, one of the first deacons, was stoned just a few chapters later in Acts. Jesus himself suffered and died on a cross, though he was without sin. Paul was imprisoned, beaten to the point of death, and eventually martyred. Christians in the Middle East are beheaded for their faith, including women and children. My friend, Saeed, sits in prison in Iran, apart from his wife Nagmeh and their two kids, for nothing other than his belief in Christ. Those all sound like more than "I" can handle, and Christianity is not a replacement for suffering. In fact, Jesus, Peter and Paul all affirm that living a life in pursuit of Christ will result in persecution, at some level.
I appreciate your honesty and explanation, it sounds like it must have been a pretty difficult season in life.