Welcome to the forum, zen!

- i don't believe in any religion but in my country atheist is a crime.. so i cannot tell where i'm from and please don't track my IP
Kudos to you for this. I admire your lack of belief in a country where your right to hold a lack of belief is denied.
I've often wondered how many people in countries that have an official religion and that also have laws that forbid a disbelief are atheists. I've wondered if the religious belief of many people in such countries is a result of such laws and that deep down inside they truly only believe because it's 'required' by law. Going back to my days of taking psychology classes in college I wonder how many people are a victim of group think, and that they feel that a belief is necessary, but really if they examine themselves outside of their culture they will find they only have a belief because it's required by law.
A coworker of my husband is from Medina. While a child he held a belief in Allah because he felt it was necessary. When he moved here (NY) he shed his believe pretty quickly. He claims his belief in Allah was solely based on his surrounding culture. He told me that deep down inside he didn't really believe in Allah but only did it because it was required by culture and political influence.
Not too sure where I'm going with this because I've been up all night and I'm tired. Anyways, welcome!