I remember seeing this b4 but watched it again... thanx! My experience was similar to hers, only I had a calvarial hemangioma from a head trauma on the right frontal side of my brain. The blood vessels in the skull ruptured and the resulting bulging inner table began to slowly press against the brain. This part of the brain is where one holds their conscious awareness to what is going on around them and juggles the maximum number of things that they can hold on to. It also is the part of the brain that connects actions to consequences, and emotion center to the flight or fight mechanism.
Before the accident, I was to a great degree connected more to my "Deep inner peace circuitry" of my right hemisphere. I hated conflict and would blend in with every group never challenging the group, or I simply kept to myself and stayed in my own thot world. It was very difficult to stay in my linear brain and I spent most of my time in abstract regions of thought. The creative mind was very active and like a deer I was alert to every little new thing around me and tended to block out the mundane. I moved from thing to another unable to keep my focus on any one thing for any length of time. It was difficult as a child fitting in, but over the years I was able to adapt to my environment and became an "productive member of society." It was easiest to be part of a religious group where I could just speak the religious language and poly parrot the preacher for intellectual stimulation. I used my creative talents writing music, making and playing musical instruments, doing beadwork, painting and other artistic endeavors.
After the accident as the hemangioma slowly pressed the skull into my right frontal cortex, my left hemisphere began to take more control over my thoughts and I temporarily lost my creativity. I became more analytical about things and also began to say what I thot without caring about the consequences. Suddenly I could not believe anything without evidence for it and began to question all that I ever knew and believed. I became obsessive about knowing the truth and quickly became an atheist as a result of my research refuting creationism and other things that family and friends would bring up.
I began having myclonic seizures, had a retinal detachment, peripheral neuropathy and serious headaches. Most of that has repaired itself and I am much more balanced then before the accident.
The hemangioma stopped growing, I am writing a sci-fi novel and starting to get my creativity back, but unable to play my (many) musical instruments. I just don't feel like it.
