These aren't good reasons for wanting to be a theist, and none of the reasons you wish to become a theist have nothing to do with atheism. You do sound confused and hopefully your stay at this forum will help to you understand both atheist and theism a little better.
a)Was brought up as atheist. Got bored.
Got bored with what. Becoming a theist isn't something one should do just out of boredom. It's a pretty big commitment, and depending on the type of theist you become can lead to a lot more boring situations than being an atheist can.
For example, if you become a christian or a muslim you are required by your god to attend service, and there is nothing more boring than sitting in a church hearing a pastor tell you how unworthy god thinks you are are aren't going to be spending a blissful afterlife with him because of your unworthyness, and being told that the only way to please this god is to give him constant praise. I can name hundreds of better things to do on a sunday morning or afternoon that are a lot more fun than sitting in a pew for an hour. Curing a hangover from the night before is much more fun than any church service.
b)Was a blind atheist (Later realized, all these years was atheist because was brought up as one. Wanted to form own opinion).
It doesn't matter. So you didn't believe in god. Not everyone who doesn't believe in god calls themselves an atheist. Sure, by the very definition of the word they are, but some just don't care about t he non-existence of him and don't actively declare their disbelief. And as an atheist you can form your own opinion all you want to. There is no text book definition of the opinions that atheists should hold, like there is a believe in certain gods.
I mean, come on man. If you become a theist you no longer have your own opinion. Your opinion of this deity is shared with the other believers of that specific god you believe in. It doesn't matter if it's a god of the major religions, or some generic god. If you search hard enough you will find believers that share similar opinions as yourself. There is no original thought in theism, because its all be said before.
I mean, if you were an atheist you might come up with an idea that the more prominent atheists haven't thought of. The posters on this forum will give your their own, unique opinion, but in my history as a member here all theists regardless of belief share a similar theme.
Curiosity is a good thing. hopefully as you become curious about your theistic beliefs you will dump them when you realize they make no sense.
d)Was a racist.
I am glad your not now, but this has nothing to do with atheism at all. There are racists atheists just like there are racists theist. It has nothing to do with a belief or disbelief in a god. It only has to deal with one once being closeminded and a dick.
If you want to use theism as an excuse for not being a racist anymore then you are only deluding yourself. In my mind racism is a major problem in society. There is another major problem in society that I used to hold. I'm an atheist, and I'm also a former drug addict, but I never relied on theism to help me when I wasn't happy with my situation. It's all about being proactive and seeing everything in a new light.
As I said, I'm glad your no longer a racist. But racism has nothing to do with atheism.
e)Got freakin tired of fighting for survival.
So did I. I took more proactive steps to survive and become dominate. I cleaned up and went to college, but its best to fight your own battles and not turn to something supernatural to do your fighting for you. There is nothing wrong with looking for help but if you simply back down from a fight you look like a pussy. Don't let people walk all over you.
f)Was unhappy(Most of my friends who are atheists are happy. I wasn't).
Sorry. Maybe you suffer from depression?!
g)Wanted a choice rather than a compulsion.
And you can chose to believe in a if god if you want too but I sure as hell hope you at least believe in your choice to worship this god. If not then you're wasting your mind being brainwashed for no other reason than to become happy with life, stop being a racist, searching for some sort of excitement, etc.
Your reasons for wanting to be a theist are very confusing. I just hope you don't make the wrong decision and believe in something blindly simply because you felt it would make your life better.
As the bible says:
45That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+5%3A45&version=KJV
Or as a similar saying goes, "in ones life some rain must fall"
"it can't rain all the time"
a)Believe in evolution.
I hope so. There is must more compelling evidence to support evolution than there is to support any form of a god.
c)Have done many things which aren't permitted in any religion.
And religion controls people. Pat Condell gives a good reason for not believing in a god. Just watch. You'll learn a lot:
Well, good luck in your search for a belief or non-belief to hold. I hope you make the right decision and realize that believing in a god is pretty much pointless. There is no evidence to hold a belief in a god. A belief can be used as a crutch for some, but at the same time a non-belief is much healthier.