Sorry for my bad english, English is not my primary language.
Name : Gin
Sex : Yes Please! (lol, Austin Powers style. All the joke aside, i'm male btw)
Location : Small country in south-east Asia called Indonesia..
Job : Architect (When i had no assignment like this, actually it means that my boss paying me to post in this forum, lol)
A little history about me :
Age : 4 - 12
I'm the "Invisible" type of kid. Always stay in class, never make a sound.
Teachers usually never noticed me. I look kinda weak, so mean kid usually picks me. (What a nice childhood)
My parents is the type who doesn't really care about religions, so they just pick the closest school.
So they put me in one of the local Christian School.
So, Christian Religion is one major part of study there.
I remembered i had to study Bible for exam.
What a douchebag principals.
Age : 12 - 18
Junior, senior high school... Again, my parents pick the closest one.
This time i spend 6 years in private school, and guess what, religions is also the part of major study.
At least the students got to choose.
Because i know nothing of the other religions, i had to choose Christian.
Again, i had to study Bible for exams, but worse,
There is this retreat camp each year, which we are going to dirty and muddy forest to make campfire.
Sing, and dance (Don't imagine that prom thing), this is horrible.
But because i'm "Invisible", i survived the whole thing. 6 years straight.
I had to admit. When i was younger.
There was a time... I DO believe in God. I DO pray. I DO wish something to happened.
When it does happen, i thank God.
When it doesn't, i said to myself "I'm sorry for my ignorance, thy will be done"
Age : 18 - present
During my time in college, i finally found my true calling.
Not Christian, not any other religion, but Atheist. (Yaayyy)
It's all started with a book i found in my room.
It was my brother's, i often saw him read it.
One day, i really got nothing better to do, i saw that book just laying there on my desk. So i read it.
All i can say is, this book change my life.
It changes everything i have learned so far.
everything is makes sense, Very rational, Very scientific.
(I't not a book about satanism or a cult mind you)
It's just a book about some Buddhist priest asking questions for Christians.
By the time i finished that book, that's the time i realize.
"This is what i am..."
So, the thing that drives me away from Christianism is not dissapointment for God, or anything like that.
It's just simply i found something suits me better.
And then, the problem begins right here.
From that turning point of my life...
I had difficult time with my relationship.
All my crush always said "I only want to go out with people who already accept and loves Jesus"
If just a few girl say it, then maybe it's just them.
But if ALL of the Christian Girl saying it!!! Then there's just something f*cking wrong with their religion!
How could they be so discriminating!
If i don't believe, then i'm a bad guy. They choose to be with some loser and cheating kind of guy, as long he go to church.
Then i finally found out, it's all because of that f*cking priest who farted every sunday to brainwashed them.
Told to love everyone, but make sure to burn people who doesn't accept Jesus.
My friends in college called me "The Devil".
Then... I've got no choice, i had to put my Religion MASK.
I go to church, i fake pray, i fake Spirit Languange, i fake my tears.
And guess what???? It worked!!!
I get my girlfriend that way...
Too bad it ended because she found out that i am an Atheist.
Then i tried to do the same thing over again (They love the whole redemption thing)
Guess what, got another girlfriend...
But this time, she's trying to "SAVE" me by making me believe.
The ending is the same though..
It ended with her saying "You are beyond saving, i can't save you. Please accept Jesus before it's too late"
Then she left me..
Does anybody want to laugh?
I didn't drink, i didn't smoke, i didn't beat her, i didn't cheat on her
Yes i lied to her about me, when actually i'm an atheist.
But come on!!!
The only thing i have to say about religions is
"YOU ONLY SEE WHAT YOU WANTED TO SEE"
For final words.
I'm so glad i found this forum...
This place feels like home. Somewhere i really belong.
Sorry for bad english
And my story will continue if anyone's interesed..