Hi, Colleen, welcome to WWGHA. I hope you find your stay here informative and entertaining.
Some people will not truly consider God . . . until they're aware that THIS might be their last breath.
Other people, on the other hand, will spend years truly "considering god" and come to the conclusion that, in all likelihood, there isn't one. As strange as it probably sounds to you, the fact that we're atheists doesn't mean we haven't given the matter any thought. In fact, quite the contrary, most of the regulars here are atheists because they have
Imagine being on the 100th floor of one of the Trade Towers on September 11th and realizing your flight down the stairs might not get you out safely.
Or imagine a rainy night on the highway as you are driving home late one Friday and a semi tractor trailer faces you head on with no time to react.
Then there's always the doctors diagnosis that "Yes, I'm sorry, it's cancer and it's beyond treatment."
Yes, everyone dies eventually. How is that relevant?
All of us must face the reality now, while we still have eyes to read and time to ask "God, if you're real, will you please show me?"
Most of the regulars here have done that. In fact, most of the regulars here were Christians, and they weren't casual about it, either. When they felt their faith starting to fade, most of them were very distraught and tried very hard to continue being believers. They prayed and prayed and prayed, imploring Yahweh to give them strength or some kind of a sign or what have you to help them continue being believers. Yahweh did not answer them. What do you think about that?
As we open up the only Book that we know, deep in our hearts, is like no other on earth.
Most of the regulars here have done that, too. (You'll want to notice, by the way, that you're making a hell of a lot of assumptions about us, and thus far, they've all been wrong. Not just a little bit wrong, either, but VERY wrong.)
Anyway. Most of us here, including me, have read that Bronze Age Cure For Insomnia cover to cover at least once, and it did not cause believers to retain their faith or cause atheists to become believers. For my own part, in fact, I had always been rather skeptical of Christianity, and when I finally got around to reading the bible a year or two ago, I did not "magically see the light" or anything. In fact, quite the contrary, it basically cemented my rejection of the religion.
So, if YOU truly want to know if God is real, He has given YOU His personal challenge and invitation: Open His Book (Bible) with an honest desire to know Him as He is, start reading and don't stop until you "SEE" Him. He reserves Himself for those who WANT to know Him.
Then why am I, for one, an atheist? If Yahweh exists and is omniscient, he knows perfectly well that if I'm wrong about him not existing, I damn well want to know about it. So why am I still not a believer?
COULD be your last.
And again, even if it is -- so what?