I'm beginning to hate December. My breast cancer diagnosis and mastectomy were in December of '08. And now there's a suspicious area around my scar. I go in for a biopsy on friday. They say its not a breast cancer recurrance. But it might be a type of cancer that's caused by radiation treatment. Wouldn't that just suck??? My physical therapist, my oncologist, and a radiation oncologist brought in for a consult have all looked at it. They all don't like the looks of it, although they keep saying that type of cancer is rare, and it's probably no big deal. But all of them, all three, are worried, so of course now I am too.
Needless to say today has not been the best of days. I'm reminded of the thread on hope. Yeah, yeah, I've still got tons of hope. But I've also got tons of sadness tonight. I thought, when I was first diagnosed, that it would be slice, slice, off with her breasts, and then I'd be done. After all, I was supposed to be only stage 1. I woke to my oncologist telling me it had spread to my lymph nodes, and I was stage 2. Needed chemo and rads. That extra surgery and treatment has left me with lymphedema, lymphatic cording, and tightness in my chest from all the scar tissue. Now, if those rads have caused another cancer? I'm really hating this.
Anyway, just wanted to write this down. I know that many of you have been having rough times of one kind or another. So, you are not alone. And if you or anyone you know is struggling post-cancer, trust me when I say that life is never the same again. Be gentle with them. Be patient with them. Cancer sucks.