Why do I believe? Assuming that you assume i really do believe, right?
I use to think a lot. I have been a Christian.... from family roots. But no, that's somewhat incorrect, I do not believe one is a Christian from birth. I did get pushed to simply believe, but i did not. I explored a little bit, and argued as much as I could about the idea of a God. I like to think that there is no logical doubt that someone has thought up that I have not, and yet, here I am now.
A series of thoughts led me to accepting Christ.
Of course, it starts with the thought that there is no God. Therefore, in really simplified terms, there is nothing. There is no aim. There is no meaning. We are all just animals. But you all know that already. (sorry i'm 45minutes new to this forum).
Ok, another thing to keep in mind, I perceive everything as a whole. So.. the bible, i believe, cannot be cut up into bits to describe one aspect of existence. In the same way, not just one factor of life (not including biblical evidence) is enough to explain one thing. THere are a lot of factors.
First factor is that everyone has a different definition for everything.
Now define love. Because that "sums up the laws" (quoted from bible from somewhere). So i thought about love a lot... What the crap was it. ANd a "Loving God" and Jesus' only commandment was to 1) Love God and 2) Love people, and that was it.
So i thought: IF God were to be real... so He's this eternal being that's lasted forever and He was hovering in the blackness of space and thinking and attaining immeasurable wisdom. Why did he create people? or other eternal beings? Well, take it this way: if there is a tree in the middle of a forest and it falls down and noone was around, did the tree make a sound? If there is a God hovering in the middle of space all alone and noone else was there, is there really a God?
Another factor to that is, well, I thought: IF i were God, I would think: what's the point in all this. What's the point in existence? What's the point of going on and on and on and on over eternity and eternity? What's it all to KEEP IT TO MYSELF. And so, in a really abstract way, thats what love is (the opposite of that.) LOVE = TO GIVE EVERYTHING, because there is simply no point (God or no God) to keep it all to yourself. THere isn't. You atheists know it. It won't satisfy. And IF you were to say that GOd did not exist after my rant, surely you cannot deny that this definition of Love is Gold.
God of course, had done that, somewhat, with Jesus, who existed before creation (reference Genisis 1 verse 26 i believe?) but they were sort of one-body, something which i may not be able to fully understand unless I ask God himself (and again putting it to your terms: IF he were real and people could meet him after they passed away from this earth). But they (God and Jesus, being One) decided to make us. The human. At least, that was my THOUGHT. But then I asked: well, we couldn't possibly just be made to HAVE to love him (rephrased to: HAVE to give him everything). Otherwise we would all be like drones. We would all have no other choice but to give him everything and God would always win. Would that be fair? No... That would be just as meaningless as continuing to exist forever with no meaning or nothing to give oneself to.
So God gave free will. And this is how we turned out.
And i thought all this SEPARATE to the ideas of the Bible. All these thoughts came out of my own logical reasoning (you see, i thought these thoughts without taking much account to the Bible, knowing that it could all potentially be false).
And then I started to actually look at the bloody book. And it fit perfectly to how this reasoning of "IF GOD WERE REAL" works. The definition of love fits. Jesus fits. And to think that it is all meticulously played out over the course of AT LEAST 6000years and the story all flows and all the writers support each other even millenniums after one another... When it was that personal, when it was my own intellect and thought patterns being linked up to this God... that's when I knew it was real.
I know there are holes. And you will probably criticise me on them later (but PLEASE don't quarrel with me about English terms being used. If you understand what's being said, if you understand the concept, argue THAT, but not the freacking english words that are used). But those are what i believe to little things that God hasnt shown me the answers to (faith kicks in here... not at the start though, but here).
I like this question though. Because you can't tell me I'm wrong. Because it's what I (emphasis on "I") believe in.